Saturday, January 22, 2011

Thankful for This Blog

It doesn't seem possible that I have had this blog since Aug. 2007, but I have.  Still it is only since I began blogging regularly a few weeks ago that i began to really see its worth.  You see, I am a thinker.  When I have a problem I can spend days thinking it through.  I am not usually the kind of person to rush into a situation until I feel I have a good grasp of the outcome.  I guess it is another control freak thing.  As I have gotten older it has become more difficult to keep all that information straight in my head.  I am finding that this blog is a great place to think things through.

It has led to another problem though.  On the one hand I like the idea of writing with an audience in mind, but on the other hand that means that my very personal internal dialogue is out there for all to see.  So when I need to vent about something others become privy to my worst moments.  When I feel insecure, lazy, jealous, or just plain bitchy I am sharing that with the world.  That takes a level of trust that i am not known for.  The funny thing is, I wouldn't mind sharing these things with anonymous strangers, but I like people who actually know me to think better of me.

Luckily, so far at least, people have accepted me with my faults.  I haven't scared anyone off, and for that I am thankful. 

2 comments:

~Shannon~ said...

I understand what you mean - as you know I just, recently, went public with both my blogs, and I don't hold much back, so I worry sometimes what people are thinking of me. Anyway, I accept you - faults and all...not that I think you really have any.:) But if you're ever uncomfortable with me reading your blog just let me know and I'll go away....or just become a lurker, and not comment anymore. Ha!

Jen said...

lol Believe me I have plenty of faults :-) Like I said I enjoy writing knowing that someone will read it. I just still struggle with whether to post links to my blog on other places where people I know may find it :-) I really appreciate you comments!